Today is April 19, 2017.
I’m feeling a bit better today.. so far. So I think I may be able to do some extra stuff today. I was thinking about going for a walk later. I think I just need time to heal from what happened still. It was a kind of traumatizing event for me to lose someone like that so suddenly then have to try and trust them again when they came back. I guess I’m too hard on myself.
Also for the note, I do write these blogs as I go on with my day so if things seem to change rapidly while you read this, that’s why.
My breakfast was simple again. I just scrambled 3 eggs with a little bit of seasoning salt and pepper. I also added some dulse flakes as well. I’m trying to stay away from too much oil cause I can tell it makes my insides very sluggish right now because I used to eat a lot of fatty foods. I also had a cup of blueberries, 1/2 cup of cherries and 1/2 of a banana with cinnamon on top.
Total calories is 413.
Today I tried something different but still using my leftovers. I had salad with dulse flakes. And I also made black bean burgers with 2 tbsp of ketchup and fried them in 1 tbsp of coconut oil. Here is recipe:
- 1 egg white
- 1 cup black beans
- 1/2 cup quinoa/rice mix
- Tbsp minced garlic
- 1/2 tbsp taco seasoning
- 1/2 tbsp chili powder
Then you just mix all together and fry in a small amount of oil.
Total calories is 570.
So I’m coming to the conclusion that I suck at this and that my dinner time is always going to suck haha. It’s just so hard to cook delicious junk for my boyfriend and then not eat it myself. I try and keep my portion down though. Anyways, I made homemade fried chicken in a Thai sweet chili sauce. And I made makeshift mac and cheese with elbow macaroni and cheese whiz. For the fried chicken I just used 2 cups bisquick with paprika, chili powder and garlic powder and I beat 3 eggs. I just dipped the chicken in the flour then the eggs then the flour again and after I just coated it all with Thai sweet chili sauce.
Total calories around 965.. I failed lol.
Well I started watching 13 Reasons Why so I just potatoed again haha. I really have to get myself motivated to at least go for a walk.
Today was a better day. Not totally better but better than yesterday. I’m still feeling some pain but I’m trying to receive love more and not just cut everyone off because I feel scared of people leaving me. I tend to do this when I get hurt. Just keep swimming.