Day Three

Today is April 19, 2017. 

I’m feeling a bit better today.. so far. So I think I may be able to do some extra stuff today. I was thinking about going for a walk later. I think I just need time to heal from what happened still. It was a kind of traumatizing event for me to lose someone like that so suddenly then have to try and trust them again when they came back. I guess I’m too hard on myself.

Also for the note, I do write these blogs as I go on with my day so if things seem to change rapidly while you read this, that’s why. 


My breakfast was simple again. I just scrambled 3 eggs with a little bit of seasoning salt and pepper. I also added some dulse flakes as well. I’m trying to stay away from too much oil cause I can tell it makes my insides very sluggish right now because I used to eat a lot of fatty foods. I also had a cup of blueberries, 1/2 cup of cherries and 1/2 of a banana with cinnamon on top. 

Total calories is 413. 


Today I tried something different but still using my leftovers. I had salad with dulse flakes. And I also made black bean burgers with 2 tbsp of ketchup and fried them in 1 tbsp of coconut oil. Here is recipe:

  • 1 egg white
  • 1 cup black beans 
  • 1/2 cup quinoa/rice mix
  • Tbsp minced garlic
  • 1/2 tbsp taco seasoning
  • 1/2 tbsp chili powder

Then you just mix all together and fry in a small amount of oil. 

Total calories is 570. 

So I’m coming to the conclusion that I suck at this and that my dinner time is always going to suck haha. It’s just so hard to cook delicious junk for my boyfriend and then not eat it myself. I try and keep my portion down though. Anyways, I made homemade fried chicken in a Thai sweet chili sauce. And I made makeshift mac and cheese with elbow macaroni and cheese whiz. For the fried chicken I just used 2 cups bisquick with paprika, chili powder and garlic powder and I beat 3 eggs. I just dipped the chicken in the flour then the eggs then the flour again and after I just coated it all with Thai sweet chili sauce. 

Total calories around 965.. I failed lol. 


Well I started watching 13 Reasons Why so I just potatoed again haha. I really have to get myself motivated to at least go for a walk. 

Mental/Spiritual Health

Today was a better day. Not totally better but better than yesterday. I’m still feeling some pain but I’m trying to receive love more and not just cut everyone off because I feel scared of people leaving me. I tend to do this when I get hurt. Just keep swimming


Day One

Today is April 17, 2017. 

Two years ago around this time I fell off the bandwagon within a day (for writing blogs at least.) I hope to make it a little farther this time around haha. I think most of my blogs will be a what I ate in a day/what I did in a day that relates to my health on all levels. Anyways here we go! 

Weight and How I’m Feeling Health Wise

So this time last year I gained an extra 20 pounds which seemed like out of no where but a couple months later I got diagnosed with Lupus. I think my weight gain may have also been due to the extra stress I had in my life as well. If you read my About Me you can see all the other issues I deal with on a daily basis as well. Anyways, I weighed myself today and I am sitting at 195.4 pounds. This is about as heavy as I’ve ever been in my life. At 5’3, this is quite a bit to me. On the other hand, in the past 6 months I’ve felt a lot better than I have in the past 2 years. I’m not 100% by any means, probably only 60% but that’s a lot considering where I was at. I’ve done a lot of emotional work over the years which has helped greatly. I think I’m at a point in my life where I feel like I can start healing without feeling bogged down by absolutely everything

Here’s what my body looks like at 195.4 pounds. 


I don’t really have that many groceries in the house right now unfortunately so I kind of had to wing it to come up with something healthy to eat for breakfast. I had two eggs just fried without oil on a pan and I added pepper, taco seasoning and dulse flakes. I’m not going to add a picture of that cause it wasn’t the prettiest haha. But I also had a smoothie with:

  • One Banana
  • 1/2 Aloe Vera Juice bottle (didn’t have the water I usually use)
  • 3/4 cup Wild organic blueberries
  • 1/2 cup Dark cherries 
  • 1 tbsp Chia seeds 

Total calories was 485


    My lunch was very cheap and simple. Like I said, I don’t have much for groceries so I just gotta make due. I ended up making a quinoa/wild rice bowl with black beans and frozen veggies. I also had a size of green beans. I seasoned it with taco seasoning, garlic powder and dulse flakes. The recipe is super simple but here it is:

    • 1/2 cup quinoa/wild rice mix
    • 1/2 cup black beans 
    • 3/4 cup frozen veggies 
    • Tsp garlic powder
    • Tsp taco seasoning 
    • Tsp dulse flakes
    • 3/4 cup green beans 

    Total calories was 308


    And sometimes I fall off the bandwagon on the first day.. lol. I cook for me and my boyfriend so sometimes it’s hard to eat well when he doesn’t like healthy food cause I’m too lazy to cook two meals. I also have a bit of an over eating problem too which doesn’t help. I did try and throw in a bit of green as well as kept my calories under my limit. Also for the record, I am counting calories because I do have an over eating issue. Otherwise I’m more about eating for nutrition more than anything.. sometimes haha. But hey, I’m human and you just gotta pick yourself up and try again

    Anyways, for supper I made fish sticks and perogies. I also have a bit of salad with dulse flakes (seriously trying to get iodine) and a small amount of ranch dressing. Here’s to eating good again tomorrow. 😛

    Total calories is 735. 


    I didn’t actually exercise today but I did clean a bit as well as spent a good half hour outside trying to scrub off duct tape from my car window so I’m sure that helped a bit. Tomorrow I start work at a greenhouse so I will definitely have some exercise tomorrow. 

    Mental/Spiritual Health

    I am looking to start doing yoga/meditation here soon when I have time. I also like to watch self help videos often. I did a forgiveness exercise today to help me forgive an important person to me so I can move on from the past. I totally believe it is just as important to nurture your mental and spiritual self as well as your physical self. 

    So that concludes today I think. 🙂